Things have been crazy over at our house. I guess that is the life of a busy family of 4! McDad hurt his knee last month, so he's been laid up until they could get him into surgery, on top of the fact that we just moved from our home to a house closer to McDad's job. It was a tearful transition, mainly for Sunshine and me. I have a hard time letting go of memories that were created in our old house, and Sunshine doesn't know any differently! We are just about settled in our new place and I'm sure it will feel like home before we know it.
I've been so busy with the move and our company (Mark DuRant Photography), that I haven't really had time to plan or prep for a new school year. Public school kids went back to school today, and I felt a bit guilty that I didn't start with my kiddos. I guess that is the beauty of homeschooling though- we can set our own schedule! We are aiming to start after Labor Day- our schoolroom needs to be unpacked and curriculum purchased.
Honestly, I've been second guessing our decision to homeschool our children. We have support from family- mostly-- but we hear a lot of , "When are you going to put them in school?" and " Don't you think she's missing out?"
Ugh...
I understand people's concerns, but seriously, it gets old and it starts to get in my head. Today, I was doubting myself majorly. Seeing all of my friends' kids in their first day outfits on facebook made me wonder if we are doing the right thing for our children.
So I spent the morning thinking and praying about it.... I texted McDad my feelings because, as the leader of our home, I trust his judgement. As I was doubting, I was reminded of the fact that WE didn't decide to homeschool our children, God led us to this place and we just chose to be obedient to His calling.
Both McDad and I were led to consider homeschooling separately- so as we have prayed about our chidlren and considered future decision for them, I am reminded that we have been called to homeschool- at least for this time and until God tells us differently.
There are days I wish I could send my daughter off to school and spend the day cuddling and playing with Slugger. There are days I want to focus on our business and home and not worry about planning lessons. There are times I would love to count down the days until my children are in school so I can finally have some "me time".
But then I remember that we were led to be a homeschooling family for a reason. Even when I feel inadequate, even when I doubt, I know we are where we are supposed to be. And I take lots of comfort in that.
So, its off to send emails for Mark DuRant Photography and then start planning our school year-- praying every step of the way.
